Lol. sian

Wah today. i very sian den in class keep on di siao mrs soh.
hais,,, den MT lesson keep quiet and keep on doing the Compo. first to finish. and relaxation time~

Recess, i jumped down from the stairs and ran with full acceleration and hurt my thigh muscles. & ate alot. hahas.
after that MATHS! I Love IT +.+
Like Normal. i did the paper with Flow~ and anyhow answer. hehes.
forgot a lot of formulaes den no motivation.

after school.
went home.
prepared.
called my cousins to borrow badminton racquet.
they wanted to tag along.
when i reached the court. saw them playing.
den my cousins reach. den play.
dun seem to feel that the others want to play with them. hais.
NVM. i won't play badminton anymore. emphasize on swimming.

To me. i feel the friend who went to play badminton, they feel my cousins are selfish.
on the other hand, i think my cousins are shy so they can only keep on playing and cannot associate.

After playing badminton, i and my cousin went o change and went to CWP.
he needed to collect his HP which has spoilt on 4th february... LOL YJ's Bird day.
So long den the HP got fixed.
hais. den we 2 go walk around wait for my elder cousin who just got released from army camp for labour day holiday. this guy is working as a web designer as well as serving NS. 2in1 hehe

We went to NOKIA service centre.
Asked for the service manager.
den my 2nd cousin and i watched from behind.
wah. my elder cousin hiong ah!
he scold the service manager until the head big big.
NON-STOP SHOOTING.
They sent the HP for repair for around 3 months le.
asked about whether the hp is fxed for 8 times.
and only now it is FIXED! wth.
This is not the problem with the HP.
This is the problem of not having good service.
den the manager bo bian give my cousins compensation, 1yr more warranty and a priority cue.
hahas.
but i think it is too little.

after that we went around thinking where to have dinner.
That elder cousin doesn't care about the price of the food, just the standard.
sian diao. we asked for 2 japanese curry chicken don and 1 teriyaki chicken meal.
wah lao eh. the japanese curry chicken sucks lor. not enough sauce. den the meat too hard.
hais.
after that we went home.

hais, now my leg is aching fom muscle tear.
and my foot go burned from the friction of running bare footed.
argh! always like this de.... damn.

wake up!

I need a tight slap in the face to to wake up my consciousness....
Thinking but not doing.
Doing but not completing.

Today was very tired.
When i reached school, went to sit with zulhairi and shi kuan.
Sk was eating breakfast. Zul was listening to MP3 and sleeping. I took out chemistry and started doing. Chemistry must score at least B3!! But i want an A1!

Den Dnt lesson. Mr loke went thru on what we needed to focus on more of our Port Folio's.
Den left with 20 minutes, he let us chat and do our own things.
His a Funny Guy. Rich and Kind. hahas.
We talked a lot. den i was listening to FT Island's A Tear Flows and BoA's Be With You.
Den time's up go back for mathematics lesson.
ENLARGEMENT>.< stupid so easy that maths idiot teach until so complicated. make my friends gong gong~ This teacher is still young and cannot tolerate anything from us. But the irony is if she is still young he should at least be able to communicate with us in a better way. She talks like a man -.- What THe. TOOT TOOT

Recess.... I never bring Money den Borrow $2 fom Rui Wei and eat Laksa.
hope he doesn't charge me interest.

Suddenly thought of mother tongue.
I wanna do well.. but my chinese sucks.
B3 ah..
remembered on monday when teacher ask us to tell her our marks then she can record for our CA2, i go and give her all the fake marks. The marks i gave were lower than the ones i had. Totally busted. No motivation. bssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhh.

POA argh. how to do well lei? The people around me never help.
i wonder are they really my classmates or so called "friends".
Even im trying myself but most of the points i can get it.
So whats the point. I ask them question they never hear. FUCK

den VEd. sian suddenly very tired.
hais. den no mooooood straight away.
English also anyhow do.
cos i have sealed my mind away from english.
no more interest. the lesson is boring.
How i wish to bng the word 'BORING' to the teacher but im afraid of shattering annother heart of a teacher who has so much faith in you.

Finally Geo remedial. anyhow do, dunno why the others have to think so much over a question.
just get to the main points and u can score.
den i left very early.

the others? cramming?
relax and work smart but efficiently.

saying and not doing it again.
i have thought of jumping out of my window before.
the pain u receive from jumping down 9 storeys is nth.
u die once u land. no pain. and definitely not gaining anything.

Wow! interesting..

Wah today super tired at frst is PE i ran around a lot. anyhow kick and hit the volleyball.
as a result Kelvin Eo Xiang Lin's Leg is once again injured....
hahas.

Den no english no Chem remedial! yesh!
hehe.

After school go meet Jin sheng. den XJ with us 2 go woodlands centre.
we wait at mcdonald until 2 den jin sheng go withdraw money and pay back to XJ.
After that go take bus.
Saw ah ma and her.... hais.. dun say le.
so unlucky.

De go meet Wei Jing and Gason.
Go to school frontgate, wait for Jia Yi.
den after that me, gay and wei jing play psp together.
den jS anyhow run like wild boar.

DEn the arguement started...
we 3 go there watch.. wah lao the girl de stead super noisy sia... shout so loud at my female friend... den gason shout at him, " eh dun zi zi dian dian hor. they are girls ok. dun think only u can shout i also can." That girl's stead d sound suddenly lower liao. some more talk nicely sia.

den got another pai kia.
yucks.... he walk pass her stead.
the back.
den...... arg.....GRAB the ass of her GF sia.. den the girl like dun care. just adjust her skirt..
Gason and I saw le sian diao. !O.O!

after that they finally come to an end den before they left... the paikia hug her GF tightly and squeeze the ass again.. =.=
and he gave a horny look at the gf somemore with his eyes looking at the boobies.
what de.

buey tahan. we all sit down and drink water.....
after that walk home den underneath Jia Yi's Block me and JS chat.
Den JS call Christiana Bong come downstairs. den he and Bong chat i play Monster Hunter.
hehe.

after that bong ask me stupid questions... den all the way i no emotion de.. hahas.

den go home le... wait for bus so long. MAS SELAMAT!!! i wish U Selamat being captured.
den wait for so long for the bus.

Byebye.
Be happy!

Time

To comprehend the value of one year, just ask the students who have failed for their entrance exams.
To comprehend the value of one month, just ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To comprehend the value of one week, just ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To comprehend the value of one hour, just ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To comprehend the value of one minute, just ask the people who missed their stop on the train.
To comprehend the value of one second, just ask the person who managed to avoid an accident just in time.
To comprehend the value of one-tenth of a second, just ask the person who ended up with a silver medal at the Olympics.
The hands of the clock will continue ticking.
Therefore treasure every moment you have.
And treat today as the utmost gift you'll have.

This quote was from a character in a drama who is about to meet his end.
Friends please value every now and then.

Today i really have nothing to blog on.
later will be heading to Singapore.

Even if u are facing the last moments of life.
Live happily.
Don't be like me a saddist. hahas

Classix

Uhhhhhhhh....
hahas. sorry eh. ytd i say i will online at night to somebody but i end up sleeping all the way to morning 9am.
hehe. PIG!
Sian lei....cos of headache again i am sleeping so much. my brains are gonna rust le la
hmm english paper. what the FCUK.
Paper 1 sian diao what is speech?????
paper 2 How to do summary?????
argh....diie diie diie!

I saw u looking out of the window? Looking for Inspiration?
Thinking?
hahas.

During the 2 papers i drew two manga drawings.
wah long time never draw liao sia.
wanna see ask me for it.

i remembered learning how to draw manga when i was in primary 2.
LOL. hahas. everything started out with dragonball.
wheeee~ feel so relaxed when i am drawing.
drew one devil. Drew one electrical Guitarist.
The guitarist very cool. NYA!
hahas

Den after the papers go home. wait for 911 so long den i go take 912.
Saw my class de three aunties go KFC i think.
den on 912 infront of KFC i saw YJ.
hahas. all the aunties like to hang out at the same place? duh....

after finishing all the preparations i went back to malaysia liao. den MAMA go sarawak after that. unlike some people who dunno how to concentrate go and do other things, i prefer to go and sleep. hehe =P

So stupid.

HAHAS HAHAS HAHAS.

I am stupid i am stupid.
Stupid in the sense of not knowing when is prelims.
Only until recently some 'friend' told me.
Woots. Today MT paper was easy for paper 1 but tough in paper 2
Talk about lee hsien loong. WTheck.
Who wanna listen him talk.
while reading my eyes keep on shutting and opening.
cannot concentrate.
den anyhow do. cos i saw MR LEE HSIEN LOONG'S face in the paper.
his eyes also so small...make me wanna sleep...
I'm hallucinating again. argh!

Hmm. den paper one im not really good at it. cos forgot some of the main points.
hehe, den listening com. wahs. i am the most wanted criminal liao so cool man =/
Kane, Shaun, Steven, Nicholas, Zong Wang and desmond got called by LIN DA WEI.
den when LEE GIA HWEE come to the back i ask her why is desmond why not me. hahas.
den another round of announcement.
this time i kena liao! yay! yesh!
I raise my hand sia and smile. so BHB de wor. I very cool de man.

Den after finishing the homework fter school around 2.30 den go eat with Kane and Shaun.
after that we went seperate ways. they went to Zulhairi's house while i on the other hand went home.

So tired. the sky was somewhat dusky seemed like it is gonna pour again.
hahas. den walk home so cool also. can match with benson de wind. hehe.
was holding my psp and listening to songs. BHAM BHAM BHAM!
All so heavy.

after that was waiting for some people to online. den read comics den fell asleep fall way.
as u can see my life at home sucks.
NO life!

No blogging lor.
duh... why so sian de.

My friend say she getting more chio yr by yr sia.
I have nth to comment about.
But my mind knows that,
her beauty comes from within not her exterior.
The brilliance only glimmers in the dark where a tender heart exists.

hahs. kay~ go revise abit lor.
tmr english.
classmates always say my english above their standard.
It actually brings down my moral.
Now i lack confidence.
i need motivation.

Anyone can cheer for me?

undone.

The distance is finally unretractable.
No more faith.

just boredom.
I cannot stand the english lessons.

Today went to swim.
den ate dinner with zulhairi and hock boon.
after which went home.

and now im here blogging.
I have nth to write of.
I not in the mood anyway.

I can see what i want, but it is impossible for me to achieve.
my dreams are greater than those of typical noobs.
The distance between me and the sky.
But the sky is infinite in length.
There is no possibilty.
i m not possible.

为什么莫名有种 矛盾的情绪

给了你祝福 又盼望你回心转意

他给的幸福 你从笑容就能说明

我还凭什么关心 怎么你不抗拒

感情没有防盗锁 爱走不到尽头

不后悔付出 过各自回家的路

试着不再难过 变得成熟

是我能安慰自己 唯一的收获

就离开我 别回过头

不要用从前看以后 我猜是我的错

爱怎么被偷走 那只是个感受

如果离开是爱你 最后的承诺

多年以后偶尔 记得那疯狂

不成熟的我 不说穿了

不要结果 不伪装了 我的难过

sorrow-filled.

3 days since the end of SUPERTEENS camp huh.

Well, overall it is great. It was also brain-washing us but positively.
Dr Ernest Wong, maybe one day i will be the next you? hahas. by then i will earn big cash and relax. I think Ken and peter are almost reaching to their First One Million Dollars.
Learnt some marketing skills from Ken. And from Peter, how to establish ur own route to success early.

Quite Encouraging.
First day of Camp was fun.
Second day we all had a scolding to wake us from the nonsense we always had.
Den everyone had their bad habits and behaviour named out.
Some were introverts, some are pure laziness.
Mine was the feeling of being inferior to everyone because there is no existence of me in the class.
After that we all had a glance of the most important person in our live.
OURSELVES.
I didn't think i was the most important. i thought everyone around me was important.
including my nemesis.
Although it is a pain to accept enemies they are still considered important.
Some Of us cried. but Not me.
I was running thru my memory lane.
I found my Dad slapping my Mum.
I saw my Mum crying because of me and my siblings.
I saw my Dad cried for the first time in front of me when he sent me to the hospital.
I saw my Dad caning me and whipping me with the buckle of the leather belt.
I saw my homework thrown into my face.
I saw my Mum protecting me from the torment of my Dad.
I saw no happiness.
My childhood was filled mostly with tears.
I was an unhappy child.
friends in kindergarten will sometimes avoid me too.

I picked up violence.
I talked about killing the malays in kindergarten and was counselled by my headmaster.
My brain was corrupted by filth.

The last day of camp.
I saw fellow school mates with their parents.
I was without my parents.
FINE.
things became interesting.
Ernest started talking.
Saying hu hates the nagging of their parents.
i was the first to raise my hands also....Lol everyone in front laugh.
Funny, some parents incorporated to his show.
He asked what occupations we wanted what grades we aimed for.
he tot i wanted to be a entrepreneur but i never stood.
den i said my main objective was being a Petroleum Chemist.
Hahas den he ask hu wanna be petroleum chemist.
only i stood up. everyone applaud.
hehe. so paiseh.

He started to talk about his past, about his dad.
Same as me he hated his father.
then. he acted in a skit.
about how to lecture ur son/daughter. the sound effect oh gosh. so cool. i also can make.
Den demonstrated some skills.
and reviewed on what we learnt for the parents knowledge. -.-

Finally the high peak.
Those whose parents were there had to reach out to their parents, and say that they love their parents.
then, for the students.
We walked to our respective teachers.
I solo say ' i love you' to MDM ROSNA sia!
whahas. so pro.
den shook hands with Mr loke[DNT]
and thanked him for the moral support he always displayed to the DNT students.

After the closing ceremony went to find wei jing cos he birthday.
a lot of people gather together. hahas.
den i walked home around around 12.30am

Saturday went back to malaysia.
No traffic Jam.
Hmm. Cos my aunt and her BF visited so my mum brought me along for lunch, hehe cos i also haven't had breakfast and lunch mah. xp
den we went to the traditional restaurant where my fathe rand mother went before i wasn't even borned into this world. Hhaas. Chicken Cutlet with 2 eggs. Lol the egg and chicken so big piece.
After that go to the very old liao de confectionery. there they still using charcoal to bake loathes.
so nice the smell. FRESH!
den ate nasi lemak again. opposite to the confectionery. hahas.
a very nice environment.
Next time i also wanna bring my very own girlfriend there. but still have a long way to go. bleahs.

Went home never online for one whole day.
den i go sleep le.

Yeah~!
all done.

Today. hmm. nth much i never eat for recess cos of the excessive dashing during PE.
English lesson wanna sleep sia so super de sian lor. grrrr.
not interesting at all.

good day.

Today was fun.
i resemble Dr Ernest sia. as if...... -.-
den the whole day listen and take notes.
hahas. My Sweets all eaten up....
have to buy more tomorrow. hehe.

after hearing the talks.
I wanna exile myself from relationships.
Until i finish NS! hahas.

Nothing to say.

I dunno which group im in... what should i do?

baka me.

The Fourth resembled the first.
But loved the fourth most.

Nothing can restrict me from doing so.
anything can destroy it though'

Jealousy kills.
Heartless&Loveless.

But somehow i only feel the flame with the fourth.
this piece of mind is warping from time to time.

Tomorros Superteens camp. sian.
waste time sia.
morning till evening 7pm
hais. sure tired tired de lor
if can i wish to send her home.
FAT HOPE hahas.


byebye.

out of this world

today. woke up and was quite energetic. never really think much whether i wanna go school or not. after washing up and wearing my uniform i went to pack up my stuff.
set the time. put on some wax.
go school. 6.35am.
Today got Oral. I dunno.
den still got stupid chinese compo writing competition.
wtf. no interest. this competition never ask for permision den make us do the work.
Fcuk.
PE lesson run like a pig. No strength and stamina. -.-
Recess took the whole 20 minutes to finish my food. so slow the girls eat faster than me.
English TMD. my headache starts again. always on the same spot. can dig it out? LOL
den lay my head on table without jotting down notes.
MT omg no mood la. the headache is getting severe.
my brain gonna burn liao. den keep quiet do the work by myself. sure write out of point di. den first to pass up dun need to care so much about homework le. hehe.
after that go Combined humanities- Geography. MY so called favourite subject. [as if -.-]
Mdm Radha never come so we all go 5s2 there den teacher relief us. i read comic. denn desmond commented that de comic very violent. blood here blood there.
hehe. i enjoyed it.
i love red colour and thus, blood is my favourite too.
SS do the worksheet de peer marking.den after that go sit with Lina. Wha! we go 4/5 for the last week de question. all answers by me ^^. Lina never gong xian. she was blur blur. but better than sotong.
Somehow the next question we got stuck cos she wrte everything the other way round hahas.
so clumsy but fun. i can say she is dense bah.
After that go out eat lunch with Xj.
The Nasi Pattaya. wah the egg quite nice. the fried rice all warpped up by the egg. not too salty or spicy just nice.
hais.
recently, i am totally left out.
dun wish to share with friends anymore.
no use sharing when there is no relations to what they are doing.
my thinkings and the things i do are always away from what others think and act.
I'm different.
DIFFERENT IS THE WORD. I miss 2s1 buddies.
NO longer LIKE before.






My fren lost a mate.
I lost mine long ago.
i had the same feeling after my fren broke up.
i flt he was having a replay of my history.
the DIFFERENCE was he had the right to be angry above all.
i at that time couldn't even be angry, happy nor sad.
just a nobody. Heartless&Loveless.
i was again lost in the space of time for the moment.
where is the special happiness.
NOWHERE.



Now my fren has crossed all borders to forgive his EX.
They have patched.


I felt even stupid.
the mind ocean of mine is as deep as the black sea.
He found his shitfting-Freedom.
I prolonged for this tower of isolation.

GoodLuck My friend.
make sure she doesn't take u for granted.
hais.

tiring. enjoying.

Friday
went back to malaysia.
Den at night nothing to do. just keep on coughing out the phlegm.
hahas.

Saturday.
woke up around 9 plus.
den found out the container i use to cough the phlegm was filled up. Greenish. Gross. Disgusting.
yucks.
den go wash up.
after that had breakfast...... at around 1p.m.
den go out with my family [without my dad cos he at vietnam]
sent my younger bro and sis to the art academy liao we go shopping. hehe~
Went to see wallet. den my mum and sis go look for clothes.
later i remembered that i will be swimming more often den my mum buy me a pair of wet shorts [something like board shorts]. At the shop saw lots of nice clothings, so nice sia. quite cheap also. all imported.
den go popular. hehe. i was standing there like a kindergarten kid watching POKEMON THE 10TH MOVIE >.< wow. but was really nice hahas. den found the DVD of PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN... den mum buy and go home watch. nice sia the japanese drama. den very funny also.
at night never eat dinner. mum made noodles with char siew pork!~ extremely platable. u should try it.

today lei.
nothing happen cough out the phlegm again. but im recuperating fast. hehe.
eat breakfast den continue watching PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN.
den afternoon go take bus and got to singapore liao.
just now at CWP stupid sia. the person. at the interchange there de indian mama shop.
if it was the uncle he will find change. but his son.....wa liew~~~ everytime he deals with me hor.. he ask i got change or not if no change he will say ' er.. sorry ah no change' den won't think about anything to solve the problem. CB sia. stupid. BAI JIA ZI.
only noe how to sit there and play HP.
diao. his face macam de kind who always get beaten up by people.
and i am the kind who likes to beat him into lumps of meat.

grrrr. den was fed up go to Comics connection buy two comics and go 7/11 buy newpaper.
den go home.

CB BOY so lazy. lazy is useless. lan shi mei yong de.
he next time no father day. KNN.
i make sure his son and his grandson and his great grandson and his great great grandson and what ever will have all their lan jiao de skin circumsized till no hair can grow!

CCB!

clear view

Fadhilah Azizah Me ZiHao ____ Tricia Steven Zongwang
Sidiq Rozmira Desmond Ruiwei ____ Samir Asri Namira Farah
Dilhani Shakeela Azruhil Zul _____ Sarah Nazirah ShuYi YiJia
YeQing MeowHui Yanti XJ _______ Madelline Irene Munirah Noriyah
____________________________ Lina ShiShi Hafez Tariq

^Our Class-seating arraangement.^
The first thing i did when i entered class.
i had a clear view on the class movements.
i was siting on my table with my foot on the chair.
Quiet and observing the people around.
Everyone was doing their own things.
Some were Eating.... those two behind -.-
some were reading....
some had their head laying on the table....
some were arguing...desmond and ruiwei hahas.

There was this special feeling. Is like everyone was in their own composure.
NO constraints.
and of course there is No DOUBT that we are 5s1.

for once i feel like a class.
Den mrs Soh came in. Whenever it was her lesson, i would try to be enthusiastic so she won't scold me. opposite from Zong Wang, he could sit down there and sleep with his eyes open. All kinds of sleeping techniques. AHHAS.

Den MT write compo. OKOK. but i lack the spirit to write what i think. but just copying my peers for the answer. Den i bo liao go write. "我厄杀了一个平白无辜的小生命，他连世上的山珍海味，美味佳肴都还没尝试就死了。"
i was writing about de bao zhang bao zhang de ying xiang.
but i write until like the child pity only because he never have the chance to eat when i had to write that he was very ke lian.
Totally no link to what i was writing!

PoA okok again like yesterday.
den geograhy test. wah sian ah never finish the paper.
nvm.

Now at home, have to finish the geography Mindmap that mdm Radha ordered me to do.
i am the only one who has to do that.. wah sian.
jiu ming!!!

i conceit.

saranghae yo YO!

today is killing me.
the sore throat caused by my coughing has worsen.
i totally lost my voice.

When i reach school, go thumb in den met ZW.
my throat very pain so never join him in eating breakfast.
hahas.
During DNT, ZW zi "HI"
he sit like holiday resort. den make stupid sound.

ARGH.
Den is mathematics lesson.
wah cos i finished le, Miss Lim ask me to correct the answers.
okok la. mostly correct.
hehe. den she give me another worksheet... wtHELL.
i sian sian cannot do. see the question den straight away play jokes with rui wei.
wahhahas.
den sabo rui wei. he also need to do. hehe.

after that go recess....wah lao eh.
all the way the dinosaur and the sotong spouting nonsense.
then pat her head.
i buy small bowl de laksa cannot meh?~
after eating.. my throat more zao gao....
sian di lor.
zhen de shi tong dao hen gou li de lor.

PoA. wah theory...
nice lesson. i kind of catch the meaning.
i kind of like things on business hahas. maybe because of my father's genes.
den i like eating and cooking because of my mother's genes!
hahas.

SO BHB sia.
hehe. Chemistry ok la.
one thing very stupid lor.
steven call me den i look at him.
he use the flexible rule make the shape of the middle finger. __
den mrs soh saww and caught him. den steven volunteeer too sit on the floor.
i very suey ask to go answer the question on the board.
draw 2 times.


on the long long long journey home.... i bought some food and drinks.
den walking home. sian diao rain till very heavy. bo bian i walk slowly. Or else will slip and fall.
reach home den eat...
den lay on bed. think think think.
den watch japanese drama. so touching sia.... the guy went back in time... tried to change and change and change some crucial thing to make the girl who had always been by her side since childhood but he never realised to be his bride. He never succeed for almost everytime only untill the last time...

hais,,,,
bub-bye.
bye bbbbbbbbbicycle.

my 50th post.

today was fine.
i was able to be a playmate of hers.
calling her names and joking with her.
hais, but still... weird.
NVM>.< try harder.
see her trying hard is always the best.

it was only until 'i' got a view on my past, that
i was actually too unconsiderate.
if there was just one more chance. i wanna make her smile.. framed in a beautiful photo.
ruthless decisions, led to destruction.

senseless.

The Man is Woman's Last Love. The Women is Man's First Love.

After knowing a bit more i finally understood.
am i making u angry?
is my behaviour an eyesore to you?
please...

headache arh

ytd after finishing messaging with her, I GOT HEADACHE. DEN FEVER>.<
Wah Lao eh. den the whole night nv sleep well.
keep on crawling in and out of the bedroom to drink water and use toilet...
grrr.
den today morning... dun have the appetite to eat sia.
den sit there watch tv till 11+
den bath.
den head aching again den i go sleep until 3 pm.
den eat lunch.
hahs. the curry super hot. My mum long time never cook curry le. den cook until extremely spicy.
diao.
den i eat some pills. the pain is killed off.
but now feels like a bolt is stuck in my brain.
wah pain pain pain....
byebye i go eat pancake le..
WATCH DEATHNOTE!

poa haven't finish..... -.-

a message for you.

maybe it has ended.
we will be friends.
good friends.
the feeling will fade accordingly.

I wish.
being happy comes from the inner heart not the facial expression.
i will only smile when i wish too. i will not try to smile.
Nephishesim of my emotions. hahas.
but how?
can't help it.
i need to be cold and caring at the same time.

actually i have nth to say.
just laugh all the way.

in the first place i wanted to play as the devil.
to make u hate me.
=]
but i was mesmerised by ur smile.

great choice

all had ended well.
nice to say that i'm more relaxed.

now listening to Monday Kiz's latest album, Inside Story, which will only be released on 10th april.
hahas. but i'm listening already.
The album is filled with sentimental songs.
out of 12 tracks 9 are sentimentals.
1 R&B collaboration.
1 Intro music.
1 Outro music.

Nice!
hahas. but i'm so bored although i dun feel the burden anymore, the shadows are still bound to haunt on me. relaxed la, kelvin. hehe. study well. and don't think anymore.
i will never trust anyone else.
never fall for another.
until i become an ADULT legally.
'A' tear flows..

the stigmata of romance.
reproaching myself never helps.
byebye. ^^

courage and bravery.

my name.

What Kelvin Eo Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

clueless.

did you cry?
can you not hide every feeling from me?
this is the end.
but there might be a new starting.
Smile for me. is that ok?
take care.
i may be cold towards you.

i still am the same towards u.
i too dun like u to have tears rolling down your cheek.

gave in to myself

GAVE UP!
ALL GONE.
I'm Pulverised by my own agony.

私は彼女を愛するが、彼女を憎む

Today.
Ran 2.4km
injured again.
went home with zh.
bathed.
went to school by zh father's car.
ate during recess.
took 30 minutes to finish my food.

Wasn't feeling ok.
DNT.
put in a lot of effort.
could have finished the whole object if i had all the nesessary materials.
almost done anyway.

Before maths lesson.
A stupid bimbo stuck her nose into my matters.
made me no mood to do anything.
maths test.
gave every answer in reverse.
ZERO marks.
this time, this little women doesn't know the taste of playing with fire.
and kept on aiming the gun against me.

If i could just quit going to school.
this world would be totally clean from diseases.
PoA.
no intention to joke or answer anybody.
stupidity.
how stupid and stubborn can i go.

i'm just a grunt who can do nothing but watch.

subconscious.
i can't tell your intentions.
i cant feel.
i cant continue anymore.

Curry!

The arm was inflicted with a razor
and the crimson liquid flow like the movement of the river plains.
Yet, the man kept on fighting leaving the sea of blood behind,
intact from the front.
The eternal bliss, like sakura flowers........ bloomed brilliantly.
till he become pale.
the uttering smile of joy become visible from the look of agony.

Sometimes, keep holding on is an achievement.
Again, embrace your dreams.

Ytd i asked someone of something. She replied me 'U BLIND AH'
den i replied.' LOVE IS BLIND'
HAHAS.

today wasn't a good day either.
stupid me.
Old le. not as sporty as before.
it was a total let down. hais.
went home and yet i couldn't sleep.
i'm too tired to close my eyes and sleep.......

Sian-ed.
bye.