ai yo yo!

today was quite a restless day for me.
did not have a good sleep actually didn;t weant to go to school. but i noe it will affect my studies badly so i went to school.
hmm.....when i reached school i was talking with hock boon and chang lin. hock boon was so damn pervertic keep on talking about having sex with girls..... den say i that one very big... diao....i dun think so.....hais.
den almost forgot to do my biometric so i ran to thump in hahaas. tot i would be able to meet the girl but she was even later than i expected.
Geo lessons. aiyo. more sian. gave tricia her notes cos she nv came for the previous lessons.
see i so good hahas no la is actually last time i late den she help me copy some notes.
she very funny talk like a small little girl the sound so sharp......>.<
LOL. Den today i imitate her sound, steven they all laugh hahas.
then was maths lesson lor taught Xj how to draw the Locus and etc. hehe Pro lei. think he can absorb fast bah.
wanted to go to the front and teach her but she looked like she was having a hard time and if i interfered she may get fed up of drawing.
Recess. i ate a Vegetable Platter!! hehe got kang kong, bean sprout and egg and tou ge.... wah i turn into monk le... i mean near to that stage.
after recess mdm rosna gave us the O level de paper thingy to clarify. MDM ROSNA IS A GOOD TEACHER!~
hahas. den went to Assembly. wah lao eh got a BLACK coloured GAY on the stage hosting the show sia.....sian when got performance everybody cheer...but when the black gay come out everyone jeer.... hais. WT****
I wanted to sit beside her to entertain her de.... wah den they wendy and 3 friends sing dao~ zhao xia!~ ai yo still can gert what XXXxXXXXXX champion.........stupid de lor.


after that got chinese test again....every 3 weeks once lei..i do until sleep den i suddenly woke up and do it with all my energy left.... after that was like dyng cos i'm exhausted. She nv go watch the movie wor...... i also dunno why....pity her. hehe =]

lost sight.

hahas today was actually not bad.
but now dunno why i feel very dumb. i think too much at such times.
maybe i'm too carefree and then careless too.
I have to set a benchmark to all things i'm doing.
in the first lesson, nearly fell asleep but woke up all of a sudden, failed my PoA common test. F9 24/100.

Can't get into contact with this subject no matter what.
but try harder by 200% bah. ~~~~
hahas. suddenly i have become so optimistic. >.<
hais..... so sian.

Den it was mother tongue. i think i'm starting to pick up, cos i finally ca write compo and letter writing by my own le. aim for B3 bah. hehe. that would be enough.

Mathematics lesson, Miss Joy Lim aka Ah JOY. never came, she was on MC. Wonder why she suddenly sick sia. hahas. Recently, during her lessons i very ~GUAI~ hehe. got motive de. but is a good motive. To score A1! hahas.

Den was recess. XJ say he wanna eat fruits den asked rui wei, desmond and zi hao wanna eat or not. he tot i wanna eat also den bought one more packet or papaya. but i dun like it then left it to zong wang. Xj sian diao when i say i dun eat PAPAYA.

Chemistry, one of the lessons i am starting to get interested in. The teacher may notbe a good at explaining... but i respect her because no matter what she is still a teacher.
I wanna say sorry to a lot of teachers that i have disrespected...........

Den physics wahahahs we ent to com lab. KKK nv come. so we all made a fool. Zong Wang go youtube watch Crayon Shin Chan! hahas we laugh laugh laugh..wakekekes....den we watched HOKKIEN VERSION TITANIC! i only remember one thing.....
the verse
" KUA SI MI KUA CHAO AH GUA.........." den is "WA HO LU GONG< LU EH AH MA GONG, XXXX, KAN NI NA BU CAO JI BAI! WAH MAI CHAO AH GUA!" then the guy piss off le. wahahahs

hmm den english.... sian.....
MY TEST ARGH! should have scored above 20 de.... den only score 16/30. diaos...
Miss Salwati sorry i nv met ur expectations... hais.
My story has been brokened... grrr....

Byes~ my bloggie.

The old days still reminisce within my memories.

really exhausted.

Drinking a mug of coke with ice. my belongings all put ont the table. so messy. hais.

Was listening to Kimi No Tonari De from BoA the Live.

I just reached home and had a bath.

Washed my clothes....after the bath. den now blogging.

Sometimes listening to instrumental rock is also quite refreshing...

hahas. really tired right now feel like sleeping. suddenly wanna see her smile.

that sweet U-shaped lips hahas.

TIRED.argh. feel like shouting le.

hahas. Hmm...

Today reached school den went to thumb in my thumbprints.

Went to read Newpaper at the canteen with Mr Loke.

He was having breakfast hahas and always reach school very early sia.

He lives at Yishun. Quite near to marsiling area.

Den after the morning assembly, everyone had to go to their respective houses. polaris arcturus regulus aquila. hais sian la. wasted my time. i was longing for the PE lesson. den half and hour of pe was wasted.

We were playing 'throw and catch' at first. Then suddenly changed to normal volleyball... but i dunno why very sian. playing with the malays is not fun. It was like i'm playing with a bunch of fools. I WANNA PLAY WITH SERIOUS CONTENDERS WHO CAN TURN UP THE TEMPO. I WANT MORE CHALLENGES. NEVER TO BE AFRAID TO FALL DOWN. JUST KEEP ON CLIMBING UP.

this class of mine sometimes give me the wrong mindset. They never do things seriously. All they can do is laugh... and talk nonsense. hais. can i have more serious students in class. Or maybe i stop coming to school?

sian ah! rawr. stupids. but they are still a handful in class who are potential time bombs like me, they may light up anytime and shock the class with the anger accumulated daily.

Den was homeroom, we only did some shading on the OTAS sheet.

MT lesson, was fun like always.

English lesson boring as always. I want Christina Chew to teach us! she better at teahing us cos our class know her more than we noe Miss Salwati.

Lastly. Values Education was swapped into SS lesson. hais. but bo bian must listen to lesson although i'm tired.

After school she went home. had this feeling that i should accompany her to the bus stop hahas. but my initiative came too late. she was already at the back gate when i wanted to give chase...

Wasn't feeling well? Hmm, take care wor.

Den went to search for Mr Loke with Rui Wei and Desmond.

Walked to many place but still cannot find then we go HOD room call him.

At Thinking Hub, i played with HP and PSP, den do chemistry homework. was releasing stress. hahs. the room so cooling. fully air conditioned. Four 3-sit Sofas. 2 computers. hahas.

den me desmond and rui wei go buy food and eat inside. char siew bao~ shang hai bao~ WAD ever BAO~ hahas

after finishing hw lei den i use COM go watch anime. den reach 5 le we waited for Mr Roslan to come and lock the door but so long nv come so we all lay on the Sofa and relax. wah SHUANG! hahas.

den went to wait for her le.

So long nv send her home. today send her home was quite refreshing. dunno why she had a smile on the face all the way. hahas.

- Time has temperature -

new style? or stay? 2wo

i want this vest!!!

hahas just nw was viewing a website.
i have been eyeing on a vest jacket.

hahs but i dunno the price at the shop i usually go to buy shirts.

so nice.

i still wanna buy other clothes. and jeans.

Sounds like a shopping spree! hehe

hahas.

if i could change my style!

New style? or stay?

hmm.. yesterday.
i broke a glass in a bed of feathers.....
guilty. it was only then knew i was too much.
my life was put into standby.
i was sad. but i unearthed the truth from my own ground.
i made a good decision.
Extracting the ore of courage from the space in my mind.
i asked her the question.
apologised.
i grieved for the wrong i made.

back to normal.
today i played with her ponytail. bag. hahas.
den i said sorry. actually it wasn't for the hair or the bag. It was for yesterday.

I'm not a sentimental lover.
only capable of wishing. not capable of fulfilling.
end of this season.
i will pick myself and do the forsaken.
sworn with death to be just and not playing along with feelings.

Sorry.

i WISH upon.

Wishing. Wishing.Wishing. i wish upon being happy everyday.
Unable to break the bond of being upset. Being sad is part of everyday life.
Design and Technology is pulling me apart. Not knowing what to do but to follow my colleagues.
I Wish i can change.
i wish i can change into.
i wish i can change into a.
i wish i can change into a better.
i wish i can change into a better person.
i wish i can change into a better person who.
i wish i can change into a better person who will.
i wish i can change into a better person who will study.
i wish i can change into a better person who will study harder...................






I wanna tell her i won't change into an ungrateful men.
I wish forever. i wish for the future not the past.

=] =] =] =] =]


study. love.family.basketball. friends.
All are important.
I wish i won't have to be troubled by not having enough money.
living a thrifty life now onwards.

Am i ungrateful to you?

Think Too Much. Maybe it is me or you. Don't hide the fact. Just continue studying.

THE ANSWER IS WITH ME.

WHEN THE TIME COMES I WILL REVEAL THE TRUTH.

Today.

SIAN.

Yesterday.

HAPPY.

Now. Tired.

Later... i dunno what will i do.

haiyo. nvm let it flow...let it flow...

I'm not a unfaithful person. I'm not impolite just dun wanna talk like a gentlemen with people.

Unless otherwise, standards and conditions apply.

'YOU' Ah! dun always make me worry so much can or not?!!?!

hais...........

Best Friend.

HAHAS. Today was as happy as her. hehe. Able to accompany her and her before leaving singapore.
Hmm, morning woke up at 9.30 den online search for Musou Orochi Japanese version de psp game. Very Fun to play.
Den after that go bath, mop, sweep and clean up the room. den style my hair and pack my stuff. set off to Woodlands centre wait for Tommy.
There i met my "good female friend" and ah MA.
Saw her study so hard. den i was like really bored nth to do so play psp awhile. hahas i killed the boss! XDD
after that keep on smiling with her.. also dunno why... she look at me she also smile [is there something on my face??]
den we 2 talk nonsense.
I'm no longer a cold-blooded vampire. i can see light. i am more emotional le. YAY!
after that go into the pool centre cos Jie heng and tommy went in. we watched them play. i also demonstrated one time to shuyi and meow hui.
Lucky my Hands never shake x=

Den went home after that.... suddenly received a message den i feel safe...... cos ......... hehe.

above the clouds

So happy today. but was rather content at the start.

Couldn't wake up at first. was laying on the bed half-dead. My head was so dizzy den tot of asking my mum to write a letter for me... hahas but i remembered that today i wanted to buy chocolate for her. and so i picked myself up and bath in the hot water.

Wah~ So comfortable.... hahas. Laid on the bed again [ half naked la.... bleahs]
rest awhile still quite sleepy den go and change into school uniform. set off to school at 6.30am. walked to cwp den buy the Meiji Black chocolate because i remembered that someone said that she dun like chocolates to have additional ingredients. and best is the chocolate brings a bitter flavour. hahas.

reach school called her den she turned back wanted to give her the chocolate but she like shocked [as if i won;t give her chocolates again....... >.<]
hahas. den she say later then give .
During assembly also quite shuang.
At first no courage to sit beside her den after that see ZH nv talk with her le den i proceed to her side go disturb her. yipee. =]

den after that go mother tongue remedial le.
First time do my own bao zhang bao dao sia! hahas always got help from others de me finally become independent.
wakekeks

After that go do DNT until 5.30 hahas.
Mr loke keep on saying funny but some pervertic jokes. hhas
me zong wang ruiwei and desmond all sian diao but we laugh until very loud.
Got air con sia ahahs so relax den sat at the sofa relax also.
Den after finish accompany zong wang home den i go home le.

Happie Birthday My friend, Zong Wang

i miss her. i miss her not

Yeah. today was kind of tired cuz ytd day i play Need For Speed Prostreet until 2++ den went to bed but wasn't sleeping but rolling around. maybe i still have her in my mind bah. but the shadow is diminishing. NO doubt i still like her. 100% !!!

Do u know that havin to go thru all these was worth it i can undersatnd the errors i made from the past. This feeling weighs far more than a piece of gold. I'm happy and hope that u too am the same.

Today in school got chem and physics results. I wasn't on of those hu never put in effort but the ones who tried but still had no improvement. hais. nvm still got one more chance and it is the chance to prove myself. Den Physics just pass satisfied cos i can understand why.

The english common test i chose question 4.
I wrote the story of myself of contracting a virus and was infected by this disease that eats up my bone. My skull bone was slowly eaten and soon i loss my sight. I was drastically shattered, but there was this girl wh is always there for me when i was down. and one dya the girl cried. i felt guilty and useless so i pulled myself together and called upon all my friends for a reunion as my days were numbered. AT first my right eye loss sight later my left eye too became blind. and i covered this secret by pretending i could still see and the following i died with a smile hung on my face....

I hope this essay can score well cos i used 20 minutes thinking about it.

I still think about u. do u?

~memories~

hahas haven't been think much of the past until now. Maybe i am too lonely bah.

Sometimes keeping everything to myself is really kind off stupid, but i'm too shy to even spread out my thoughts.



Hais. found this film strip.... so long never watch this show le. really very sweet sia.



HAHAS. sian. but continue living for the good.

CRAZY~

Today in class very sian, as usual i try to do stupid things to make it enjoyable. Wah if jin sheng and james still around in school my stress level wouldn't be as high.
At first PE lesson. really got nothing to do, abyhow kick the ball. Den booz...... FARA was injured with a deep cut.
Den recess okok la but when i eat the chinese cook food de mixed vegetale rice hor.....the CURRY MEAT AND THE EGG taste like it is mixed in mayonnaise... However i like it hehe. I'm a weirdo. bleahs.

~Hey being selfish is a personality. It is both Good and Bad [ nonsense ]
But if u think u are letting everything go too easily nvm. strengthen ur mind.~

den during HM and CME also sian.. when it comes to zul and Fez de presentation Rosna suddenly go harsh. aiyo.... mdm rosna dun angry la, living happily can extend ur live.
During MT lei aiyo... got diao by teacher but i also play play... grrrrr. hahas.

English was boring when the class was having fun at the concourse i went to talk with Hock Boon. My old Buddy. hehe. We were once the stupid DUO who are always giving our sec2 form teacher trouble... hais.

Den the english quiz also very sian, already no mood liao still wanna play....

shian,sian,cian,xian,syan....

hais.
Plastered with a smile on the face.
Thisissobloodyfake. Jumping like a monkey around everyday.
" Life has to go on" people always say that, and correct i'm doing it but a different way.

This damn life of mine is of no use. i can't outrun my opponents. My brains are smart in a different sense but definitely not for studying. I just like thinking but not doing.

But the future needs more thinking. to strive for the better future i must foresee it with my own talents and persistency.
But i always fail to remain on track. If only there is a support behind willing to push me.
I don't mind if it is a sword poking my ASS, a gun pointing eye to eye or a dog chasing me.

HAHAS. this is so much like civics and moral educations.

~Hope the Teddy and Turtle will be good friends and not
jealous with one another~

me.

I LIVE TO TELL MY OWN STORY.

THE STORY CHANGES TO MY WILL.

WHAT I DO IS ILLUSTRATED WITHIN.

FATE CHANGE IN ORDER TO HOW I RESPOND AND NOT THE GOD WHO PLAYS WITH IT.

HAHAS. SIAN SIA.

Today go school den was feeling lonely. i have no more friends in this school.

hais, my friends have all dispersed to differet areas.

After school went to Cwp buy 3 comic books which i had left out and forgot to buy last month.

MY DAD WENT BACK TO VIETNAM LE YAY!!! lol.

wakekes

Den was reading the comics at home from 3.30 to 4 den sleep then go play basketball with james they all at block 512 until around 9 den went home.

Boring schedule everyday. Wish i could be as carefree as i was in sec 2.

recuperating.

Went back to malaysia on Friday evening. really missed her although i dun have the right to do so...
Before that went to watch kung fu dunk with some friends cos they accidentally bought extra tickets. When i watched the show i found the character Cheng Bo Lin was playing as was kind of like me hahas. The chracter i forgot what name le but he is the Captain f First University's basketball team and he has a very sad and disturbing past. His past made him had an ailment, that is his hands will shake ( just like my hands ^^) He drinks wine to forget the past. (kinda sad guy) hais. He has beard, moustache and long hair. His eyebrows are also thick.

Wah sound so familiar,,,,,is it me?? joking la.

den yesterday was chatting with her in msn during the afternoon..... cos i was alone at home and had nothing to do. after finish chatting with her my mum called home asked me to wash the fish pond. hais, to be exact is wash the filter..... LOL damn dirty. got worms sum more...
But ok la long time never wash le. hehe.

IF I CAN ATONE THIS PUNISHMENT INDIVIDUALLY AND WOULD END WELL.

HAHAS down there is my sis hu came into my room and played with my clothe.

a little bit of disappointment, a bit of happiness.

Time is running. I'm not sure i can still catch that star of mine.

Today, i was frustrated during PoA lesson because i was angry with myself for losing my pen and eraser as well as because i wasn't able to understand the lesson...
After that during mother tongue, as she walked out the class i slotted the teddy bear into her bag. I really hope she would love it. It might be simple but i did it with sincerity.
Sometimes, simplicity is what makes the thing look best.

Together may bring happiness but when separated i get to understand more, Regret for not telling how i feel.

Why am i such a stupid dope...
It is just a simple thing to do why must u be so reluctant to accomplish it.

KELVIN EO XIANG LIN u are a BAKA. you dun understand human feelings.

u're dead next time if u hurt her again.
i won't go back on my words. I challenge u.

Love?

still haunted by the shock of breaking up.

i'm veryveryveryvery SAD right now.
In class i am afraid to face her. Maybe she also feels the same.
The 2 of us are as if we are in a cold war.
Silence was everything.
I'm a male. and every male is afraid of loneliness.
i feel lonely.
hais, but i noe she still likes me. I think i did hurt her a lot for optioning to break.

I still love her like i did yesterday.

Maybe this is one of the problems we have to face.

Why

Why does it have to happen why!

When i was at my highest peak. I have fallen into great depth.
Unable to recover from this intangible bruises.

Tears, they flow in my heart as rivers flow across the earthen world.
The wind was once warm, it has since been cold.

My Blood has been transfused to Poison.
Unable to keep the faith any longer.

Ilovedyoumore thananyonecould.